Trapeze…fun or fear?
Though usually my birthday celebrations with my friend, Frank, are movie and dinner, this year I didn’t want to sit and celebrate like an adult, but play more like a kid. It began with bowling, then deep, deep massage, and then…trapeze!
Flying trapeze has been on my list for a long time and having committed to putting more fun in my life, it was time.
So shortly after practicing on the ground, I was climbing up the ladder to the trapeze. Along came lots of surprises. First: the ladder suddenly felt more and more narrow as the ladder’s angle felt straighter and straighter UP. With each step, I heard my mind say, “Are you crazy?” But then another voice said, “Don’t listen. I haven’t even begun.”
As I finally reached the platform (which now felt like the size of a postage stamp), I gripped tightly to a second ladder. I was instructed to wrap my 10 toes over the edge, push my hips forward and grab the trapeze, as had been practiced below. I tried not to listen to all the objections in my mind. Next, at the sound of “Ready,” I went from straight legs to bent knees. Finally I heard the instruction, “HIP” which meant to jump off the platform, two feet together. My body wouldn’t move. After a couple of more false starts, I figured out what to do- stop listening to my fears!
So I jumped…and was delighted to feel the bar hold me after what seemed like a free fall, albeit short one. “WOW, I did it!” I said to myself, smiling.
But before I could relish that accomplishment for more than a few seconds, I was instructed to put my legs around the bar. “OK, I can do this,” I thought. But then the word “Ready,” was sounded, followed by “HIP” which meant to let go of my hands and hang upside down.
Yes, you guessed it. Old frozen returned. “Trust, trust,” my mind said. I let go of the bar and hung upside down. Another smile crept onto my face, as I heard, “I did it! I did it!”
Next, of course, was getting down. Which meant letting go and falling into the net below. I was in a dilemma- staying up there was getting tiring, but letting go was horrifying. Thank goodness the instructor was encouraging and confident, or else I’d probably still be swinging.
Once on the ground, I felt like superman…having overcome obstacles, resistance, and doubt.
I felt GREAT…felt super confident…felt super proud of myself…
Until I was asked to do it all again!
Which I did…as each time got easier and easier…as my confidence grew stronger and stronger.
“Why do this?” you may ask.
Because for me, it’s all about moving beyond my limitations…EXPANDING what feels comfortable…or as my teacher, Yogi Bhajan suggested, “getting comfortable with the uncomfortable.” Whenever I do, I feel limitless…enjoy more and more of what life offers…and feel “READY” to “HIP” my next goal and dreams.
A suggestion: When the next challenge comes along, turn off the old tapes and see it for what else it is offering…as an opportunity to have fun and overcome fears…or as they say in trapeze…to “Ready” & “Hip.”
Would love to hear your thoughts!